Things

I wrote this in September, I believe, it was kind of an experiment to see if I could write a poem that was basically just a list, successfully. And, it turned out to be pretty good. It got some good responses at the poetry reading I premiered it at. Anyways, it is a list of things I am, things I've been called, gossip about me/rumors/judgment calls based on little knowledge. Basically a combination of things you could put in a blender and create a little mixture of me.

writer, photographer,
capturing images like I try to capture hearts.
waif like. too thin, too fat,
too ugly, well dressed,
bum;
good resume, not good enough.
over qualified, too much,
good in bed,
good head,
head in books - head in clouds
short girl, small boobs, big ass,
night walker, easy mark, quick fix, band aid,
used up,
brown eyed, green eyed,
black eyed.
beaten,
choked, fucked, loved -
kissed. read-closed-left.
looked over, bought, traded.
touched, then touched.
something new,
old news,
bad kid,
rebel, thief,
saint, savior, protector, punching bag;
girl that if you only knew,
if you really knew,
you'd never know.
mystic, psychic, witch, satanist?
made out with, bought beer for,
a freebie:
"oh, she's easy."
second best, second love, never loved,
never liked, hated:
awkward, cheated on, cheater, lied too, liar.
get what you read, not what you see.
writes what she knows, not what she wants to be.
not a photograph; just a girl in a bar,
a story, a light, a dark shadow, invisible,
a star.