We went to Chicago last week for our friend Eevee's baby shower. While there, we found a cool socialist bookstore. When we got back, we also drove the opposite way out to Pittsburgh to film at our friend's arcade. It's been a busy week. This next week will be busy too. 

I also made a playlist that is like a musical timeline for my past relationships leading to my husband. I didn't have much to do in the car for the 6 hour drives. I was using music I was listening to when falling in love/out of love and recent music that reminds me of how I felt during that time. 

I created a kind of table of contents for it; however, I won't be using real names unless it's someone I'm still close with and/or Matt. Just because I want to respect people's privacy of certain individuals and also keep a level of separation from those who may have really hurt me. 

Adam: High School - Early College 

MakeDamnSure to I Want to Be Buried in Your Backyard

Josh: (Josh situation and Various college crushes on straight women) (Chris was in here too, but literally the only song I can think of is the Pokémon theme song I danced to when we finally broke up) 

Your Biggest Fan & A Crush to Pass the Time 

Jerry: (Jer and our on-and-off nonsense that spanned over a decade that was actually just a friendship)

Bad Sun to Your Ex-Lover is Dead

Edward: It was short; I don't have residual thoughts on this one

So Hot You're Hurting My Feelings to Can I Leave Me Too?

Matt: Maybe one of my massive loves, definitely someone who was a soulmate. 

Blah, Blah, Blah to Talia

England

Missing Teeth to Villain 

Georgia: Or, limerence, pretty much. 

Spiralling to if I can't be with you. 

R: Almost two years of losing my fucking mind

Timing is Everything to Eternal Sunshine

Mike: My small crush that I thought was mutual. 

You Don't Think You Like People Like Me

Steve: We're not close anymore, but I don't care about his feelings or his privacy. 

all my ghosts to My Kink is Karma 

Kes & B: no overlap here, but I didn't know how to separate them

Version of Me to You Just Didn't Like Me That Much 

Shawn: This playlist is so long I am glad it can be over. 

Spiracle to Till Death 

I might add more to it as time goes on; sometimes I hear a song, and it takes me back to a feeling or a moment. So we will see. 

Been booking a lot of vendor shows the last few months. In a couple of weeks, I am going to some paranormal conventions and have decided to "ghost" up my merchandise a little more.

Stepping back from my pursuits to get my LMFT, only because of the way the student loan system is turning out in this country right now. I can't imagine maxing out that debt for another Master's when I don't know what the government is doing... 

It was enough to be accepted into multiple programs for now. I can always pick it back up later on if things make sense later. I am more comfortable being in control of my finances with vending on the side and my full-time insurance industry career. 

Oh, I got a promotion at my job. According to many people, it is a very tough and stressful role, and I should get my therapist on speed dial. 

I used to walk into suicide scenes at my apartment job and then had 2 full-time and one part-time job while getting my MFA. I think I can handle helping lawyers decide liability from behind a laptop screen. Probably. 

 

 

We got a sphinx. Her name is Lydia. She's like the size of a rat I owned once. 

I was already sick when you called me your fix, then I pushed mine aside to make room for your shit, I've spent my life holding other peoples' aches in safe-keeping.

Started making jewelry and selling it at small vendor shows and sold a bunch at our garage sale last weekend. I also made another yearly summer playlist, like I have been doing. Shawn and I are starting to get more serious about starting our arcade business, which I am excited about. We are already juggling 3 businesses between us both; what is one more? Businesses are like cats; if you can handle them, you can have as many as you want, right?