Tomorrow at this time I will be on a plane...meow.

What makes it even better is that Californication was on last night and somewhere on the internet I can catch the episode.

I'm so completely nervous as fuck for this tomorrow situation. I haven't even consumed any coffee because I woke up with my heart basically beating out of my chest. I don't think I've ever been this excited about anything. I've been excited about things before but never where I wake up feeling like my stomach is twisted.

I'm in a very interesting limbo right now. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. Which is weird because I'm usually pretty good a gauging my emotions.

So I'm making myself do compulsive things like organize my suitcase by color, undoing it, organizing it by type, undoing that, refolding things, unfolding things. Just to stop myself from curling up with my head on my knees and staring at the pink flowers on the wallpaper.

I was writing this and every time I wrote a sentence or two I stared at it like I should just delete it. Like I'm about to jinx my plane ride. Or...something else.

I'm going to go...read a book...I need to chill my restless mind out.

Oh in other news:

Because I was nervous as fuck last night Shep let me straighten his hair haha.
And then I just nervously ranted at him about the thing I was super excited about. For about an hour because that is how long it took to do his hair. I also sang songs. Because I do that.

I realize the angle of the second picture truly illustrates how short I am/how tall Shep is compared to me. Should have stood on my toes to take the picture. I've never been teased as much about my height since I came over to Manchester in a house full of people who are 6'2''+.

Never in my life have I been picked up and hung upside down as much as I have the last couple of days.

Marie posted this picture of my cactus blooming in anticipation of me coming home. (She's also been feeding it coffee to force it to bloom. :P) I can see my other plants in the background and I'm so excited to get home to my jungle. And Marie. Can't wait to get back to see Marie so more pictures of me doing things like this: 

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Will end up on the internet.