star above muted worlds

Clearly, I have issues because I just really, really, really, spammed my tumblr with random gif scenes from the US version of Being Human that I liked. I don't even know why but I think the reblog button is probably the most addicting thing on the face of the earth. I forgone applying lip balm for longer periods of time than I can last without pressing reblog.

Since I got tumblr on my phone I think I've actually lost more followers than those I have gained because of my reblogging. I didn't actually notice how bad it was until I looked at my tumblr dashboard and saw that every other post was a scene from Being Human posted by...me.

I see it is as advertising an awesome show about vampires, werewolves, and ghosts that doesn't suck. But I'm pretty sure my ask-box is going to be full of angry hate mail in a few minutes.

I seriously need to do something productive with my life at some point in my existence. Posting things on tumblr is not a legit daily activity to really be proud of. But, I'm just going to be quite honest, for where I'm at right now (mind numbingly bored, completely alone in my apartment that varies in degrees of creeping me the fuck out, denying myself coffee since I have to sleep at some point tonight, and just being myself...really), it is working out to be an okay time killer until the next actual interesting thing occurs in my life sphere. I guess I've seemed to convince myself that it [tumblr] doubles as a method to interact with actual human beings. Because, you know, actually taking initiative to talk to people/hang out with people really spikes that fear of rejection I got going on. Tumblr never rejects me, just amuses me.

Tumblr is definitely the exact reflection of all that goes on in my head visually on a minute by minute basis. I really can't think of a better way to describe it. Which is probably why I feel so attached to it.