Man, this city just ain't so kind tonight...

Today Marie, Jimmy, Bryan Bojangles, and I all went to the Eastwood Mall in Niles so Marie could shop for GAish clothes and I could get my haircut.

Bojangles and I ended up going off by ourselves and I bought some chinese food at the food court. Mostly because I was starving at that point and now I've been full all day long. Then I made him go to Target with me and I kept getting distracted by ALL THE THINGS. I bought a fluffy rainbow blanket. Even though I originally went in to just get chapstick. As I'm writing this I remembered that I had to get Febreeze too. Craptasm...I forget everything.

While we were in the Target of many wonders I made my way to the makeup section where I grabbed eyeliner and purchased Marie some mascara that was on sale. Bryan made a comment saying something like, "Ugh....MAKEUP!?!"

Some 30 something cougar was bent over looking at covergirl items and she responded to Bryan with, "You can't get in the way of girls and their makeup. They need all of it."

Bryan yelled back, "ALL the makeup?"

The cougar laughed and said, "ALL the makeup!"

I laughed forever and decided the cougar was a janka.

In other news, I am depressed and can't wait to get to my apartment and curl up with my rainbow blanket and gigantic blue pillow. Everyday I spend here in this city, while fun, is making me exponentially more frustrated. It has gotten to the point that whenever I stop to think about how upset I've become I just cry. I need to stop this. It is way too early in the semester to just give up. I keep telling myself I don't have time to be sad but I make time anyway.

I just wish I didn't feel hopeless and alone all the time. I miss my boyfriend but most of all I miss feeling happy belongyness. Which I don't feel at all anymore. It makes me just want to curl up and not do anything while waiting for May.